The memories weigh heavy

Not my husband!
Engaging smile
Cheeks dimpled
Living
Loving daughters times two
Connected and certain

Seeing me
Knowing me
Stuck between my Rock and no place
with confused disease
Alone

Not my husband!
Disconnecting,
Knowing but not accepting
Body re purposed,
Wasted, inflated with it's own importance

Exhausted,
Bare,
Swollen,
Ice cold He lay simply
NOT my husband.